make a question for my self..
'whats ur plan for next 3 years lids??'
then i confused..stupid huh..make my self confused...
i hv no idea in my head..
'whats wrong?? i had many dreams before...
WHAT WILL U DO LIDS..
come on girl tomorrow is ur birthday..

then i make a list but only for short-term..only for this year...

• 3rd - 7th desember..back to ciwidey to keep my promise while enjoying 'the green heaven' again..last time i went there i had promised to the old man that i will send his pic when i get home..but until now i never send that pic bcause his address that he gave me was missing..but i hv to keep my promise..thats the reason why i planned this trip..and try to find farm there with cheap price....
• i wanna be a farmer..live in farm with fresh air no polution, with sound of birds in the morning, surrounded by green nature, no poltical news..ya live in peace :)
  
• in january...i will keep my promise to my mom..
• gain my weight, at least 46 kg..
• on february...i will make a trip from west sumatera to north sumatera..i named this trip 'from west to north'..i already bought ticket a few months ago...
• i hv to buy many books this year..at last 200 books..and i hv a plan to establish a 'reading books park' for free..
• stop using my credit cards..bcause i think that credit card what make my money runs out..bcause i cannot control my shopping style..even sometimes i think that who uses credit card are the poor guy..bcause always makes debt..and our Prophet Rasulullah SAW didnt like who people in debt..
  
• Insyaallah i will come to visit Baitullah...Insyaallah..amin ya Rabb...
• completing my responsibility to my brother's college..
• merried?? i put this in last of the list bcause i'm not ready yet..and i hv not found the right man who can share my whole life with..

oh ya for the last of the list..i've got advice..he said "when or if? i know its scary..but it get scary if u put urself back out there..u know, sooner or later u hv to go into it..just take a deep breath..later lot harder than sooner, believe me!!"....."i know, but i'm not ready yet"........"do u want to know a secret? no one ever ready..thats why we called a leap..and if u wait till u ready..u gonna wait forever..honey, thats life..doesnt always turn out the way like we expect".....